…and start to load yourself up on New Year resolutions, take a few minutes to think about the year that’s been.
With the new year on the horizon we tend to look forward to what we would like to achieve in the coming year but sometimes we forget to look back at all we’ve accomplished.
They don’t have to be huge momentous moments, just the small wins from the year that’s been.
So today I’d love you to try and take time to think of three accomplishments from 2017 and congratulate yourself of them.
I don’t know about you, but it’s something I’m not great at, self praise. They say; “self praise is no praise at all” but I’m starting to understand we need to be our own cheerleaders, even if it’s internal praise.
So here’s my three;
This website, SuziSays.com
On June 1st it went live, it’s had over 25,000 hits and is still in its infancy. Some of the blogs I write terrify me when I post them for lots of different reasons but they are now some of my favourites like My Redundancy Reality, I Don’t Miss My Dad On Father’s Day and Have Notions.
I love writing, I love this little blog and I’m very proud of it.
2. I’m beginning to like myself more and believe people might actually like me too.
I understand that sounds weird, so let me explain.
I don’t have a very high opinion of myself, I have a kind of envy of those who ooze self confidence, then again, when I’m mid flow on live TV talking about whatever, I’d say people think I’m that person, but in reality I really struggle with the idea that someone might like me, it’s not that I think they’ll dislike me as such but I just think I’m like the orange crayon, you definitely notice it, but it’s not the one you would necessarily pick.
Over the past year I’ve become a bit more confident in myself, because the thing is I’m a nice person, I do my very best to to nice and kind to others. Which I think for the most part, we all do. Nobody really goes out to be a total arsehole, granted we all have bad days and sometimes people fall out but with that said I’m a lot more comfortable with someone giving me a complement, I still say something stupid in return though;
“You look great”
Me: “Oh, I’ve loads of make up on”
I’m working on just saying “Thanks”.
3. I’ve survived year one and two of Oisin and Hannah’s lives.
Hannah is turning 14 months, she still doesn’t sleep a full night. I made my peace with this fact a few months back, you can read that here.
Oisín has just turned three. Time has whizzed by. I want to freeze time, This year has taught me to saviour every fleeting moment of their childhood.
2017 had so many twists and turns, it’s been my first year out of stable employment, out of radio and having a salary coming in every month.
It’s been the first year of being a stay at home Mam. It’s had long and lonely days, looking at the clock thinking – how is it ONLY 4pm, still two and a half hours until the Calvary arrives and I can catch my breath.
If you’re a parent of three, four, five, whatever amount of kids, two probably seems like a doddle. But as a first year apprentice Mam of two, I’ve found it a really challenging year. An infant and two year old are as busy as a jar of bees.
I’ve never been more appreciative of someone offering to babysit, Joey and I had two nights away this year and I can’t tell you how much we needed them. We’ve had a handful of date nights, never underestimate the joy a babysitter offer can bring parents.
It’s been busy, exhausting, exciting, frustrating, lonely and joyous, sometimes all in the one day but we’ve made it through 2017. I didn’t know how I’d cope being at home so much, but if I’m honest I’m really thankful that I’ve had a year to watch my two grow, even when I’ve been sat on the utility room floor having a little cry because I think I’m the worst Mam ever, I’m glad I got to do it in my own utility room surrounded by them rather than in a toilet where I work.
So take a moment and think about all you’ve accomplished, even the little things because it’s all the little things in life that make the big picture.
Happy New Year,